2/18/2002 – Robert

Negativity…

I recently had someone post something in the guestbook for my site:

It was suggested to me that your site was one I shouldn't miss, however, despite your obvious talents, I am sadly disappointed that someone with such an abundance of raw creativity would be so sickeningly depressed and never want to show up in someone's life, but to only wish to "sleep, perhaps to dream" and die. Wake up friend, and smell the life.

I pondered this for a moment and did realize that most of the content I do write for my page tends to be pretty dark.  No, I’m not wrist-slashingly depressed all of the time.  I’m actually quite happy right now.  This site simply happens to be a creative outlet for me.  I tend to need a creative outlet when I’m feeling pissed off or slightly depressed by something.  It helps keep me sane to vent. 

Sorry I cannot be as happy and cheerful when I write as you like.  Some of us don’t live in a world of happy-elves and magic mushrooms.  My creativity with the pen is just kicked in by negativity… my photography is a completely different story.