8/30/2001  9:10 PM

I leave for Virginia tomorrow.

Matt made me listen to new Dave Matthews Band stuff… I liked it so much I actually bought a CD.  Things are a changin’.

I’m in a very confused state.  I don’t know if I really want to go, but I guess I should.  My dad will be flying to France for business on my birthday.  Figures…

Gosh, I'm going to be 22.  I'm old...  what do I have to show for it?  I'm not looking forward to Tuesday at all.  I doubt anyone will even notice my birthday anyway.

I just started intermediate photography.

I met an old coworker that I haven’t seen for 2-3 years.

I am depressed… what does the future have to offer?  More work, more money, more pointlessness?  Who cares, money doesn’t make me happy.  Possessions don’t make me happy.  Something is missing… the pieces don’t fit and the puzzle is falling apart.

I am an idiot sometimes.

The truth is that I don’t have a fucking clue on what’s going on in my life.  Some of the things I have mentioned here, some are too personal to share with you.  Depression is setting in, my eyes are bloodshot, I don’t want to feel anything anymore.  Am I human?  I feel empty, gone.  I am filled with a void.

My, my, this should be an interesting week.