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4/9/2005 3:20am – Robert
The last night in Utah. What a journey this has been. I spent three years in junior high and high school, and I came back in late 1997 to attend the university of utah. Things never turned out the way I expected them to. About 20 minutes ago, I left Jaime’s house, my eyes watering as I said my sad goodbye. I’ll miss you; I’ll miss all of you. As I got to my car, I couldn’t hold it in anymore. The rain, reflecting my tears, my mood, or some literary shit like that. I cried the entire drive home. I could taste the salt in my lips, my nose ran. I think this was the furthest down I’ve ever felt as an adult. Was this really a good idea? A group of us had a night out… coffee, Japanese food at Shogun, and then drinks and company at Erik’s place. The night was good, something I’ll treasure always. A friend was more broken up than I’ve ever seen him… and I wish I could have done something. I’ll always be there for you, things will get better. Today, I finished my final day at the company I’ve worked at for the past 2 years, 2 months. I’ve said goodbye to more friends than anybody should ever have to. I must be crazy, I’m leaving my life and all of my friends behind. You guys / gals are family to me, and I can’t imagine life without all of you in it. I know this is the right thing for me… my life has been in limbo for a long time. For the first time in a long, long time, I feel a sense of hope for the future for me. I think I could live a very happy life in Seattle. I want to put down roots there, and I really wish I could take all of you with me. Still, the tears won’t stop. I must be crazy… I still cannot believe this is happening. I will miss all of you dearly. |