4/9/2005 3:20am Ė Robert
The last night in Utah. What a journey this has been. I spent three years in junior high and high school, and I came back in late 1997 to attend the university of utah. Things never turned out the way I expected them to.
About 20 minutes ago, I left Jaimeís house, my eyes watering as I said my sad goodbye. Iíll miss you; Iíll miss all of you. As I got to my car, I couldnít hold it in anymore. The rain, reflecting my tears, my mood, or some literary shit like that. I cried the entire drive home. I could taste the salt in my lips, my nose ran. I think this was the furthest down Iíve ever felt as an adult. Was this really a good idea?
A group of us had a night outÖ coffee, Japanese food at Shogun, and then drinks and company at Erikís place. The night was good, something Iíll treasure always. A friend was more broken up than Iíve ever seen himÖ and I wish I could have done something. Iíll always be there for you, things will get better.
Today, I finished my final day at the company Iíve worked at for the past 2 years, 2 months. Iíve said goodbye to more friends than anybody should ever have to. I must be crazy, Iím leaving my life and all of my friends behind. You guys / gals are family to me, and I canít imagine life without all of you in it.
I know this is the right thing for meÖ my life has been in limbo for a long time. For the first time in a long, long time, I feel a sense of hope for the future for me. I think I could live a very happy life in Seattle. I want to put down roots there, and I really wish I could take all of you with me.
Still, the tears wonít stop. I must be crazyÖ I still cannot believe this is happening. I will miss all of you dearly.