7/22/2003 11:00PM

 

            This piece is dedicated to the lovely Sara.  I wish you the best of luck at your crossroad in life, and I apologize terribly about depriving you with a lack of updates while you were in Georgia.  J

 

            These past few days have been particularly frustrating and draining.    I spent the majority of Sunday working on a crystal reports project for a contract I’m working on.  When I finished with work on Sunday, I headed over to the company that I contract for, and hammered away on fixing some very complicated and annoying query logic until 9 pm.  When I got home on Monday night, I choked down a philly cheesesteak sandwich from TGI Fridays (yeah, I know, gross…), then my consciousness left me and I collapsed on my bed.

            I wasn’t exactly batting a thousand today either.  Work involved running around like crazy, rarely ever getting to spend a good 20 minutes at my desk.  Afterward, I bbq’d some dinner, then tried to find an air conditioner.  I entered the vast wasteland known as Home Depot and searched… and searched… and searched.  After walking through the store a couple of times, I discovered that they were out of air conditioners, but I could have acquired a nifty swamp cooler instead.  Oh joy!

            So, I decided to visit Sears.  Just my luck, I arrive a whole 10 minutes before closing.  Of course, I didn’t have the dimensions of my window with me, I didn’t know exactly what model of air conditioner I really wanted, and my window is one of those that slides open sideways instead of sliding up and down.  This all makes things more complicated.  So, I didn’t end up buying an air conditioner…  I’ll spend another night waking up 4 times because it’s too damned hot.

            After a very frustrating past few days, I decided I needed to get out and clear my head.  A bike ride definitely qualified for that.  I pushed myself harder than I’ve done in years.  My legs pumped battery acid, but I kept going.  The harder I pushed myself, the better I felt.  My frustration turned into unadulterated energy.  It was the catharsis I needed, nothing but the ride mattered. 

           

            You know Sara, I was going to spit out clichés and revelations about my own life about how you can survive anything and how things will improve no matter what.  I realized how lame that actually was, so I’ll leave you with this.  No matter what happens, you have people that care about you.  I know, this was a nasty little tangent, but I did dedicate this piece to you, didn’t I?  You’ll be okay, kiddo.
 

robert@digitalsingularity.com